Soshite Watashi Ha Ichi Nin Ni Natta (Kadokawa Bunko)

[Machine Translation] I always wanted to be alone. I wanted to be married so badly, but after the divorce, I was free. It is lonely to live alone. Sometimes that loneliness makes me happy. The 32-year-old author's first experience of living alone: reading a book all day long without talking to anyone, basking in the sun, and calling friends because she couldn't bear the loneliness. In this diary essay, the 32-year-old author describes in detail her daily turmoil, in which everything is free, but sometimes she feels anxious and falls down.

ずっと一人になってみたかった。あんなに結婚したかったのに、離婚したら、自由になった。一人で生活するのは淋しい。その淋しさが嬉しいこともある。誰とも口をきかず一日中本を読んだり、ぼんやり日に当たったり、淋しさに耐えかねて友人に電話をしたり。32歳の著者が、経験する初めての一人暮らし。何もかもが自由なのに、ときどき不安になってすこーんと落ちてしまう、日々の揺れを細やかに綴った、日記エッセイ。