Hyogensha

[Machine Translation] Hiroki KAMITSUBO Resume of Pain From 1981 to 1990, he was bullied, abused, and physically punished by his teachers. His older sister was so abused that she was put up for adoption. In 1993, when she was 18 years old, her father's company went bankrupt. He had been visiting a psychosomatic clinic since junior high school, but his symptoms worsened and he was hospitalized. In 2002, there was an offer to release a CD, but the offer was rejected. 2002: Attempted suicide (jumped into an intersection in red) survived, and while sitting on a hospital bed thinking "I can't even die..." I started laughing and thought "If I'm going to die, I might as well die laughing from the bottom of my heart! I'm going to die laughing from the bottom of my heart! I'm not trying to be positive, I'm just trying to live life to the fullest. I thought about quitting music, but then I thought, "Even an idiot like me has something to say, something I have to say! I still keep my music alive. Laughing is more difficult than crying, but if you have the courage to cry, you can laugh! I think. This is the core of my music and my goal in life.

上坪 裕樹 痛みの履歴書 昭和56年から平成2年までイジメ・虐待・先生からの体罰をうける。 姉は虐待がひどくて養女にだされる。平成5年・十八歳のときに父親の会社が倒産。中学から心療内科に通院していたが症状が悪化して入院。平成14年・CDだせる話があったが破棄される。 平成14年・自殺未遂【交差点に赤で飛び込む】生き残ってしまい病院のベッドの上で『オレは死ぬこともでけへんのか…』と思ったらなんか笑けてきて『どうせ死ぬなら腹の底から笑って死んでやろう!』と考える。 前向きとかそんなんじゃなくただ精一杯生きる。音楽をやめようかとも思ったが『オレみたいな馬鹿でも伝えたいことや伝えなくちゃならないことがあるんじゃないか!?』と思って今でも音楽を アけている。 笑うことは泣くことより難しいけど泣く勇気があるなら笑うことができるんじゃないか!?と思う。これがオレの音楽の核であり生きる目標だ。